Monday, October 13, 2014

TMA 293: Documentary Mode 1



In books and movies, coffee shops are some of the most unique communities. The relationships here are brief but run deep. A deep-seated need for caffeine, but more importantly, a daily indulgence, draw people together. It’s a place for friends to meet daily, a la Seinfeld, and for romances to blossom, a la anything involving Nora Ephron.

Night One      

Once at Starbucks, I order a hot chocolate and sit down, angling myself so I can see the whole shop. I feel bare without my headphones. Nine out of the ten people in the store have phones or laptops out. Nobody makes eye contact.
By the entrance, three girls are standing together, wearing clothes that attempt to make them look older, more sexually progressive. Their lack of hips say otherwise, as does their eagerness to bare their skin even when the weather is chilly. Every bit of clothing is designed to attract attention: glittery earrings, bright colors, trendy hairdos. They look at their phones more than they look at each other, but giggle and laugh all the same, louder than everyone else in the shop. It’s as if they’re depending on others to define their identity. Maybe if people look at them enough, think enough things about them, someone will tell those girls who they are and where they are supposed to go from here.
            At the table next to me two female students sit and talk. One is telling a long story which doesn’t sound very interesting. Too full of details and technicalities to have any relevance to the listener. The listener looks down at her phone—it’s apparent she hears stories like this far too often. She knows how it’s going to end. The talker notices immediately—“You’re not listening! I’m just about to get to the part where I complain!” The listener doesn’t pay more attention, but that talker talks anyway. It must be the nature of their relationship. They leave soon after.
            A lot of workout clothes but no one looks like they’ve come from workouts or plan to workout later. Hair is done, people are clean, makeup isn’t smeared. It’s more a status symbol here.
            An old man walks in. He and his clothes are worn out and weathered, though clean—a sweatshirt, cargo pants, a camouflage baseball cap. White stubble outlines his face. He holds a blue hydrangea plant, and sets it on the counter. Bashfully, he goes up to the girl working and shows her the flowers. “Lenny! They’re so pretty! They’re so sweet!” He doesn’t talk with them long or order a drink but instead wipes a few of the counters down, even though it’s obvious he doesn’t work here. He tells the girls a second time about the plant. They smile again, tell him he doesn’t need to help clean up since he’s a customer. Lenny’s an installation, a harmless, quiet soul. He waves as he walks out.
Two girls walk in. One has lilac hair, brown at the roots. She’s wearing a cobalt blue trench coat—excited like every girl that fall weather has finally come and she gets to pull out the favorite part of her wardrobe. Her friend wears two different boots—one red, one brown. They’re trying to assert an identity. They’re unique, and they want to be noticed. 
             Some people come in and out so quickly, some linger and soak up the atmosphere.
 People have started to notice that I’m staring at them. I quickly turn back to my computer and open Facebook, even though I have no intention of looking at it. I quickly blend back in—just another hipster with a laptop who’s been here for far too long.
            An older couple comes in and separate wordlessly. The man, his hood over his baseball cap, immediately takes a seat and begins to read the newspaper. He fishes out the sports section. The woman, wearing fair-isle leggings that would be found in a store designed for much younger people and a straw fedora that has drifted into autumn fashion, buys the coffee and then joins the man. They don’t speak. She pulls out her phone and every once in a while says something brief to the man. He grunts. She gets her pumpkin spice latte. He doesn’t get anything.
            The employees can’t get over the potted hydrangea Lenny brought. They smile and examine it every time they pass. “He’s the sweetest old man,” they keep saying to each other.
            A larger old woman, sporting a purple tie dye shirt, hangs over the counter and chats with the one of the employees. This employee is older than the rest, and something about her face hints at motherhood. Sharon, I overhear her called. The plump lady is glad to see her. They’re not as familiar as friends, but it looks like they talk often.
            The older man and woman are talking now. He’s finished looking at the newspaper, and briefly tells her what he read. They promptly go out, and drive away in a Hummer.
            A couple orders and sit down with another young man. He’s explaining a project to them—a housing plan. They become immediately engrossed, and don’t hear the employees calling out their drinks. He’s selling it to them. “It’ll be dark and modern and grey. Really clean. The staircases will curve around into this room…” The girl in the couple is the only one who responds, mentioning Pinterest in most of her comments. The guy just nods. They all lean in uncomfortably close to look at pictures on a phone.
            Just after nine pm customers surge in. Movies, concerts, shopping, and dinner have ended. My presence also becomes less conspicuous. Students and MacBooks are everywhere. They are all plugged in and charged up, slouching over their laptops, wearing ear buds as if they’re helmets that will protect them from the outside world. No one is really doing homework at all, even though textbooks have been left open conspicuously across the tables. They’re just glanced at before returning to Gmail and iTunes and Facebook. When they go back to work, one student uses photo shop, one is writing a paper, and one writes notes while reading a book—Greyton and Hall Textbook of Medical Physiology.
An intriguing woman walks in. She looks more self-assured than anyone else in the store, has a bold short haircut, and she sits patiently as she waits for her drink. She doesn’t have to look at her phone. She just watches people. When she gets her drink she’s polite—she thanks everyone, with eye contact, and says excuse me as she walks past customers.
            A bald, bearded man wearing a UTAH WRESTLING sweatshirt bursts in, strides straight to the bathroom, and then in a few minutes walks right back out.
            A horrible cover of “Singin’ in the Rain” comes on over the speakers. It doesn’t stay true to the spirit of the original at all, but simply utilizes trendy musical features—a repetitive beat, a breathy singer. It’s my cue to leave.
             

Night Two

            The blue hydrangea plant still sits on the edge of the counter. It adds a little life to the harshly electric atmosphere and the forced, sterile “organic” décor.
            Two young moms and two little girls come through the door. The little toddler—perhaps four years old—squeals with delight. “OOooOO. This is really fun!” She does a triumphant kick into the air. While the family is in line she picks up every package of coffee and examines it individually. She picks up an applesauce container—one of the ones with a bottle top so you can squeeze it into your mouth as you go. She looks at it, licks it, and then puts the entire top into her mouth.  
Some young guys flirt with the girl at the counter. She gets nervous and accidentally draws on herself with her pen.
            A big white man with a tiny Indian wife come into the store. She’s pregnant and very far along. With her tiny frame it looks hard to maintain balance—when she stands, she leans forward and when she sits she leans back. Her feet are swollen and she doesn’t have her shoes laced up. Nevertheless she looks somewhat blissful, touching her belly absentmindedly and looking at baby things on Pinterest while she waits for her drink. The husband hasn’t ordered anything. From the outside it looks like a quick run to satisfy a craving.
            A sharp looking woman walks in, wearing unique black clothes. She has an asymmetrical haircut and multiple piercings, and wears an apron that hints of the job she must have just left—a hairdresser? “Carly! How are you!” all of the employees smile and talk with her. She starts telling them an awkward story about her day while she orders her drink. They charge to the employee account she says goodbye to each of them by name.  
            An older woman, lanky hair and a shirt that says “Rebel,” notices one of the employee’s nametags. It says “Chocolate.” “Rebel” asks if that’s really her name, and “Chocolate” immediately starts laughing. “It’s our policy here that if someone forgets their nametag the other employees get to choose a name instead. Last week I was Latisha.”  
            The plump lady from the night before is here again, but instead of purple tie dye to go with her jean skirt she’s wearing a pink and orange striped shirt. The employees smile at her again, and start preparing her drink without asking for her order. While they make the drink she hangs over the counter and chats with Sharon, just like the night before. It’s a comfortable small talk. When her drink is ready, the plump lady and the Sharon go to the end of the counter, by the hydrangea, and continue talking. When their break is over, she goes back to work and the plump lady leaves, calling out “Take care! See you tomorrow night!” The employees begin closing up.
             

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Fireside Chat



This assignment provided the hardest creative process of the semester. What do I believe? It was an interesting question to ask myself, especially with the limitations I set for myself. No social issues—I am vocal enough about those already. And no spiritual issues—too personal for me to share, and too pervasive in my life to narrow down. So that simply left… what do I believe?
            All my life I have believed in the power of solitude—something instilled in me by my parents… but also something very intrinsic to my personality. When I was in high school we took a personality tests so that we could “think about potential careers.” When I got the results of the test back, I found out that I was so severely introverted that one of my suggested careers was “religious seclusion.” Hm.
            I never really have lived that down, which I actually don’t mind. I’m very comfortable being by myself, and so solitude was never a problem. It never turned into loneliness. That is, until I dropped out of high school at age 16 to go to college, realized I didn't enjoy my chosen major (English), saw all my friends leave on missions, and finally left the country myself. Basically, until real life happened.
            I wasn’t used to the solitude being so uncomfortable. Thinking back on these experiences I was forced to ask myself if I really thought solitude was powerful at all. It hurt.
            For the workshop on this assignment we were asked to bring a piece of art that in someway defined ourselves. I immediately thought of the painting  “Crows Over the Wheatfield” by Vincent Van Gogh. And once I thought of that painting, it answered my question. Loneliness was the key to my experience with that piece of art, as well as so many others. I spent months going to museums by myself, walking through endless Turner in Britain Magritte in Belgium. I’ve spent weeks worth of nights staying  up to watch things like Cinema Paradiso and Wallander. I’ve spent hours lying upside down on the cough reading Hemingway and Heart of Darkness, I’ve spent hours on the floor of my bedroom listening to Mahler and Vaughan Williams. And the single thing that bound all of those experiences together was that my loneliness truly allowed me to experience them.
            The only challenge then was to communicate this idea. Since my personal story takes place in a museum, I thought of all of the great museum scenes in film—specifically in Manhattan, where Diane Keaton goes off on her opinions of the Guggenheim, all the while irritating Woody Allen more and more. Museums are a great setting, and a great backdrop for conversations, which is why I chose to recreate that experience through my slides and the atmospheric museum audio I played. But what about my story? The epitome of storytelling to me has long been the story “I stand here ironing.” The rhythm of the piece is what makes it stand out. The back and forth and back and forth. Except in my story, instead of ironing, you’re walking through a museum. Again, I tried to recreate that experience.
          Standing in front of everyone at the Fireside Chat, I felt lonely again. Lights were shining in my face and my hands were shaking. But I also knew it was worth it. As I said in my Fireside Chat, “Loneliness doesn’t eat you up… it opens you up.” It was the perfect interaction between media and myself.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Protest Poster


A little over a month ago I stumbled across a horrible story. One morning a particular columnist woke up to find that a picture of herself in a Halloween costume had gone viral. She had dressed up as her fictional hero Lara Croft, who she admired for her intelligence and bravery. However, instead of admiring her costume, the people who saw this image simply laughed because the women is overweight—and then sent the image to all of their friends. As she read through the many comments she found on her viral picture, she found that people assumed she must be completely addicted to food, too lazy to exercise, etc.
However, this columnist was really the opposite, as she describes herself in her article “My embarrassing picturewent viral:”
I eat right (most of the time) and I exercise (an inordinate amount), but it does little, thanks to a struggle with polycystic ovarian syndrome and a failing thyroid gland. I’m strong, I’m flexible and my doctor assures me my health is good, but the fact remains: I’m larger than someone my height should be.
As Peter Attia addresses in his TEDtalk, fat is not a causer of health problems. Instead is a symptom of greater problems like insulin resistance, food packaging & processing, psychological struggles, and hormone imbalances. Attia even suggests that doctors most likely aren’t even aware of most of the problems that cause weight gain. How are people supposed to fix problems when they haven’t the foggiest of how to fix them?
So while people are told to “lost weight” and find they hardly can, they can be slandered without consequence. It’s an accepted bigotry. A surprising majority of people believe everyone can lose weight if they just try hard enough, and they believe that by shaming those who are overweight, they’ll be motivated to lose weight. Turns out the opposite is true… when people feel shamed they simply put on more weight (read more on that here). Which I don’t think is a huge surprise. Additionally, shaming can lead to even more serious consequences than that, with eating disorders such as Anorexia and Bulimia rampant.
And yet the rude comments continue. Just think of a few months ago when the CEO of Abercrombie and Fitch declared all overweight people “just not cool enough” to wear his brand of clothes. Or of Marie Claire writer Maura Kelly, who wrote that she was disgusted by overweight people simply walking. Or all of the rude comments directed at Adele. Dr. Carolyn Ross even reveals that doctors and nurses aren’t as kind to their overweight patients, that overweight defendants are more likely to receive a guilty verdict, and that children as young as 4 don’t want to make friends with an overweight child.
Of course, at the same time, you can hardly blame most people. As Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie says in her TED talk, people have been subject to receiving a “single story” of fat people. While Adichie may have fallen into the trap of stereotyping Mexican citizens, most people fall into the trap of stereotyping overweight people—and the media, of course, is a prime factor in that. Advertisements tell us that carrots are “good” and sugar is “bad”—though I don’t think inanimate objects like food really have such moral gravity. Movies tend to portray only the young, thin, and beautiful—with overweight characters being pushed to the side as comics or villains. I believe that I might have dismissed overweight people as well, if I had not been lucky enough to have several amazingly positive stories with overweight people. 
Granted, it’s not safe to create a single story in the other direction either. Most movements fighting Weight Stigma have the catch-phrase “everyone is beautiful”—which I don’t think helps at all, as it simply redirects the attention to a person’s appearance and encourages a dismissal of general health. And, as many of my commenters on Facebook pointed out, thin people certainly can’t avoid judgment either. Thin, beautiful women are often thought of as vain, stupid, or power-hungry, and maybe by pointing out only the problems overweight people face I’m letting the problems of thin people carry on. The figures, words, and format in this poster are as one-sided and inhuman as Weight Stigma is-- for they certainly cannot adequately represent humanity.
However, with this poster, I hope to make people simply stop and think about the words they assign to people based on their appearance. Do you think of a fat person as “lazy”? Or do you think of a thin person as “vain”? To me there is very little difference. It’s unfortunate that overweight people have to carry their struggles so publicly, but there is hope. I hope that we all-- myself included-- can lay such labels to rest, and just enjoy each other as human beings, regardless of sex, skin, or size. 

Monday, November 4, 2013

Webspinna Battle

Old-Fashioned Telephone

Voice Clip: "Your mission, should you choose to accept it"

Mission Impossible Theme

Ain't That a Kick in the Head

Car Noises

Mission Impossible Quotes

Indian Music

Mission Impossible Dialogue

Running Sounds

Explosions

I was insanely pleased with Peter Jackson et al. when I watched the trailer for the first Hobbit movie—almost solely because of the music. The “Misty Mountains” theme exemplified everything Hobbit to me.
            And why? When I was a kid my dad had a 5-disc audiobook of The Hobbit. It was read by some old, staunchly English actor with a deep voice that he could distort into dozens of other voices—one for each dwarf, at least. And the best part? The narrator sang every song. I listened to those CDs dozens of times while lying on my little flower-decorated bed. And so, when I sat down with my laptop and listened to “Misty Mountains” as I watched the trailer, a whole swoosh of memories came back to me. The sound of that music told a story—drawing from the traditions of Middle Earth, the previous portrayals, its own merit… and my own memories.
            Try to draw from this and other experiences, I decided to frame the sounds of my Webspinna in a way that would tell a story—kind of like how Jonathan Lethem framed his plagiarism in such a way that it made an amazingly cohesive essay, or how in that same essay he mentions how some of the best stories come from re-using (like West Side Story, for instance). Consequently, I made my theme “Mission Impossible/Ethan Hunt.” I feel like most people, especially those in our program, have an experience with Mission Impossible—so that brings in the memory element. As I formed my Webspinna with Sarah, I tried to order the sounds in such a way that they would create a story like a Mission Impossible film: I opened with the mission itself, the classic theme, went to cars screeching to the song “Ain’t that a kick in the head”—used as a signal in one of the films, to the music from India—possibly one of the exotic places visited in the films. And, of course, it ends in an explosion. And that pretty much tells the story of a Mission Impossible film.
            In a similar vein, I felt like the whole Webspinna Battle was a story in and of itself. Meeting in a “secret” location and performing beneath personas created an atmosphere that was happily a step or two away from reality. Getting to be so interactive and immediate with the creativity of everyone. It made it almost palpable. The challenge of doing something so completely out of my comfort zone was rewarded by having a truly unique experience.

            

Monday, October 28, 2013

World Building





It’s amazing that by looking back on history and wondering if it had been different I gained so much perspective as to how one small act can change the world. Particularly I thought of one man, Constantine, whose mother was associated with a small upstart of a religion—Christianity. This association ended up changing the world.
Constantine did not seem to start out as a particular devotee of Christianity. In fact, the culture and history laid out before him did not leave the religion with many positive associations. Christians were brutally persecuted, particularly in Rome. One only has to recall Nero to think of the devastation Christians faced. In the year 250 a decree was made by the emperor Dicius proclaiming citizens of the Roman Empire were required to practice sacrifice to the Roman Gods—Christians included. Constantine himself waited until he was well past his prime and major civil wars to declare himself a Christian at age 42.
But you only have to think a moment to realize the repercussions of this small act. Christianity shaped the world, both East and West. The religion was the largest political power from Constantine through most of history. Even the next largest religion, Islam, was not likely to have shown up without the spread of Christianity. Art and language were dependent on it?
Realizing the ridiculously enormous amount of answers to the question “What if Rome didn’t adopt Christianity?” I decided to take a step back. I in now way have a comprehension of what the world would be like without Christianity. However, I do know a few things about humanity and design, stemming from the Roman age, that would have held true for the rest of history.
First, I was inspired by National Geographic and Time magazines. I absolutely love looking through these magazines, something I have done since I was a child. I was always fascinated at how their covers, featuring fantastic design and photography, could sum up some sort of truth about humanity. For example, National Geographic recently featured a story about the disappearance of race, and featured on their cover the face of a beautiful mixed-race girl. It is amazing to me how this picture can reveal so many truths about where humanity currently stands.
Another trend I often see on National Geographic is the forgotten. A forgotten world, an unearthed civilization, a mummy no one knew about. These themes could perhaps trace back to the very Roman ideals of my own world—a respect for history and heritage, illustrated by the Romans through their love of the Greeks.
It was for this reason that I chose to do a magazine cover featuring Constantine’s face. It is a tale of the forgotten, and yet it also illustrates a whole world’s identity, because history had pivoted around this man’s choice to declare and adopt Christianity.
As for the rest of the design in the hypothetical magazine, I thought of our reading. According to the author Julian Bleeker, design tells stories. So I asked myself what kind of a story I was telling through this magazine. First, I decided to make it more clean than modern magazines, keeping in mind the clarity and proportion of Roman art and architecture. Second, I thought of the ways details could communicate all of the repercussions of the loss of Christianity in Rome. This is seen through the image captions and table of contents.
Overall, I found it very interesting to explore both the amazing change one person can have on history, as well as the way humanity will shape itself.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Textual Poaching


When I was five years old, my parents went on a trip to New York City. It was my first time without them, but my parents promised they would bring me a present if I was brave. That present was a picture book telling the story of Degas’ statue Little Dancer of Fourteen Years. I have always identified with the statue. I was a very shy little girl myself, and certainly not the best in my own ballet class. In the picture book, the little girl was shy as well, and also struggled in her classes, but she was good enough to model for a statue—that is why her face is so resolute.
            I was reminded of this experience after the reading “When Texts Become Real.” In the reading, the author describes a group of girls who watched Star Trek and got so involved in it that it became something of their own creation rather than simply a television show. In my own way, Little Dancer of Fourteen Years has become my own creation—a person with a clear identity, created by my young imagination.
            As I’ve grown up, that statue has become a symbol of that part of my identity—they shy, naïve girl who tries very hard. Having gone to college very young, I have often felt like the statue with the resolute face.
            However, in many ways I was also very thoroughly prepared to attend college. My parents’ jobs as university professors in music and the humanities gave me the opportunity to be widely exposed to a great amount of thought and art. By the time I was fourteen years old myself, my brain was filled with Hemingway and Stravinsky. I won’t deny that it has given me an advantage in my schooling, and I am very grateful for that.
            Looking back to the young girl of the statue, I realize that representation of a young, female youth ended up having much less to do with my identity than I thought. Though I still feel young, I have an opportunity for growth and an access to knowledge this young girl would never have. Historically, she would not have the potential that I have to become educated and create a career for herself.
            In order to represent that, I took an image of Little Dancer of Fourteen Years and edited the photo so that it was simply a silhouette of the statue. As my confidence and knowledge have grown, that part of my identity that is represented by the statue has become a shadow as well—which is why I chose to represent the piece as a silhouette. Over the top, I laid a grid of portraits of the great artists and thinkers that have expanded my mind, influence me intellectually, and given me the opportunities that have separated me from the Little Dancer. Here I took inspiration from Frank Gehry’s architecture. He combines fluid shapes with structural grids. In my piece, I took the more fluid shape of the impressionist statues and then superimposed the grid of images on top of it.
            I made sure to make the grid of images fade a bit, so that they compete with the silhouette of the Little Dancer. In a way, I am still competing with these two elements of art in my own identity—trying to figure out of my access to knowledge or my innate shyness will determine who I am.